I GOT TAGGED(HOW JOBLESS CAN ANYONE BE!!!!)

biggest joy at the moment:er .....er......none rlly....WHT CAN BE THE JOY AT 4 15 am!!!!Probably tht I M answerable to no one at this very moment for anything n everything I do

biggest insecurity at the moment:MY FAITH in the v v v few things tht stil exist....

one thing u could undo if given an option: KILL tht bastard con artist(he was a supposed friend....S.O.B) whom I spared for pulling off tht outrageously unbelievable series of con acts on me

5 things life taught u the hard way.1.B more responsible

2.trust less people(right people).

3.MOney matter is no funny matter...:P.....

4.B sure....VERY sure about wht u do...

5.EGO is a big problem(it stil is...)

5 ppl who make life kickass(except ur family members obviously)....yaaa in this boring sem of mine I doubt thr wud b many(5 is a bit difficult)....

1...my roomie...The best roomie cum frnd 1 cn hav...all fun n likeminded n wont push his luck wid u(until v recently i.e.)

2....another roomie (flatmate rathr)not fun but yaaa this guy cn b such a loser at times.....The only person in this world who can b convicted of self-defamation(i wanna handle this case once i graduate)

3....THe utterly jobless person..yaaa staying awake wudnt b as much fun as it is nw(or is it??:P) widout you.........n ofcourse I can sleep thru her convo n still feel as if wow hw interesting it ws:)....

4...FRND bak home in NGP...I dont have a best frnd but yaa he comes closer thn most to it....likeminded.....n d fastest guitar learner i hav seen in my lyf....done more crazy shit wid him thn anyone else(I M SEXUALLY STRAIGHT)....

5...I still doubt we are frndz(serious genuine doubt) but stil call him a gud frnd(simply coz we r stil tolerating each othr) evn aftr fucking up situations aftr situations for each other....NO one i xplain these situations to believe tht v r frndz....n i end up getting reactions lik u dont need enemies whn u hav a frnd lik him(might as wel b this way thn hav enemies)...newayz its D.T.A

what are the qualities u imagine in ur "dream guy/girl"):

1.INTELLIGENT ENOUGH(to undrstnd me i.e.)

2.APPRECIATE GUD SENSE OF HUMOUR

3.RICH BITCH(coz m sure I wil b nt earning anything fancy in the nr future)

4.CONFIDENCE(has to atleast be able to carry herself)

5.WOW girl(M superficial....n wht the heck...dream gal has to sound lik one,hasnt she??:)...)

one thing u wanna tell the world in general..

ITS a general warning:)

YES my dear brothers and their sisters plz LIVE and let live....Dont gimme ur opinions unless I ASK FOR IT.....STOP acting lik a KNOW IT ALL BASTARD atleast in front of me.....DONT mess wid me....I m a rlly nice guy(hav been) ...tolerated enuf in my lyf sooo u mite just as wel stop pushing ur luck wid me ...coz u just mite b the lucky person on whom I experiment 1st up.....

ALL IN...........

Ever heard of the term 'ALL IN' ...Wel if u havent thn refer to a game of poker to knw abt the term in its totality....It is a term tht refers to the highest risk posssible in a game of stakes(poker being the most popular of all)...THE risk-taker puts everything on the line with utmost faith n belief(n hope) tht he has the best hand of all....You win and u feel u r blessed and tht faith in urslf(ur luck moreovr) is restored (o yea..... its a great feeling alrite...)Seems awesome doesnt it?...ABout time you think about losing coz nothing can b more devastating thn a financial catastrophe u mite face come the end of tht fateful round of high stakes........
Since we people have the ability to put everything into perspective(or so v believe:P..),think about this being more thn just a game ...Wht if U faced such a situation in real life!!!........I just happend(sometym bak rathr ...coz my laptop behaved in its now signature way of defaulting at the worst possible moment..*sigh*) to come across 1 such moment whr i was ready to put on the line just prove tht 'YES LOSERS I M RIGHT n M more sure abt it thn evr '...
This has to be an outcome of faith of the highest kinds and ofcourse ego(or else I cant imagine myself defending things based purely on faith rathr thn proof)... You thought poker was risky!!!........wel think agn (u gotta b kiddin!!)You win and you wud definitely feel lik a winner thru n thru....ur faith restored or since u nvr doubted it in the 1st place strengthend and ofcourse gloating ovr the now enormously unavoidable(Y shud I...:P) ego tht wud go on to drive home the pt. with tht 'I told U so'(its nt me ...my ego...so dont blame me ppl.)LOOK on the face..
THINK AGAIN ....wht happens if tht faith gets shattered(cant imagine it)....lets forget about the ego coz all u wud b able to do is read an obituary on it n tht tooo by someone else widout evn realising it ws evr thr....newayz more importantly ur faith and belief in tht very thing called 'FAITH' might just get uprooted ...A scar to remind for a lyftym not to b soo sure abt things u hav no idea abt(a loserly feeling ...huh)...
What if the faith is not based on ur abilities(or inabilities) but on something/someone else!!!All the more unbelievable as u wud b either totally shattered or on an altogether high wid ur ego having reached its zenith....BUT yes at times ur faith in things/people/urself(wonder when!!) is soo unshakeable tht u r ready to take tht ultimate risk just to prove tht u were right abt something tht world doubts.....Yes I am tht 'ALL IN' guy(atleast for now)
FAITH HAS TO BE COURAGE OF THE HIGHEST QUALITY....After all its not everyday tht u give up on the FEAR of losing just to get tht CHANCE of winning.........

ITS ALL IN THE MIND..........

Well everyone likes to stand out n b considered unique in every sense of the word. Well there are certain things tht certainly no one would lik to fall in tht category with regard to certain matters.Confusion has to b 1 of thm, 9 out of 10 wil need to flip a coin whn they are confused to the core and the 10th wil need a DICE!!!IF ever anything was invented for me thn it has to b the dice. (dont think i wud b able to put my situation into perspective widout the DICE) I wud nt evn b sure abt it evn thn n probably roll in half a dozen more times b4 i finally bak my instincts!!! or so to say go with ur heart(wondering whthr my heart cn beat my brains at a game of chess!).
If only the problem was as simple as this but then oh no but nothing seems simple or does it?
There are times when the mind has a single line of thinking(dont evn need a silly coin to reach my conclusion) and then it wonders why are u soo clear abt things!!! ,lets follow our traditional method and look for the dice!!As if wanting to prove that it is smart enuf to store more info than u can imagine .
THE times when a lack of clear thought fucked u bad and all u could do was regret over it and Yes there were times when u backed ur instincts and felt lik a loser whn it backfired n then a voice comes from within not to mess around without its permission.CON-FUSION is probably the word (nt confusion and this I m pretty sure abt:)....)tht I m subjected to,time n agn more often thn anyone else evr has...At times it seems tht my mind is nt lik a CPU but just the single largest xtndd hard-disk made evr...Evn with all these pitfalls my mind(most times) rules ovr every bloody thing I do (I definitely hav one of the smartest of these available in the mkt:P)....
So next time I dont say a thing just get tht I probably hav atleast a half a dozen things to say n get my pt.......:)

YES I MEAN THIS!!!!!!!!!!

Yes I have alwayz been referred to by friends as some1 who is honest (yeah rite) evn though I am sum1 who keeps most things to myself...........Obviously u dont say certain things coz u feel tht the othr person is human(for tht particular moment).Here are the 5 opinions,comments,statements etc I wish I had made to the respective people(not naming them obviously) .

1. Yes I put up with you a lot more than I should have.STOP with the perennial self pitying mode n move on wid ur life however loserly it may sound(and it is)..And DO NOT TRY to act as if nothing happened ...Move on.....

2. Stop acting lik a know it all bastard n Dont gimme ur opinions on things u hav no idea about coz it really does piss me off(I m bloody hell glad that people finally shut u up) and no leactures on morality please coz u r just plain hypocritical and the worst part is I can see through it.

3. Hats off to u man.. U were alwayz a step ahead of me...I saw through most of ur lines of actions but the tag friendship held me bak from ripping u apart(and hw i paid the price)....BELIEVE me when I say this I dont wanna kill u but yeah it wud be worse(a higher price)........

4. I thought u were the coolest person alive.The closest to being my mentor(thankfully u arent).I thought u knew the difference between right n wrong more than anyone else(hw wrng m i) and the worst thing is OTHRS stil think soo!!!U r still the coolest person alive but not the one I respect anymore(as if it mattered to u).

5. I have lived on with a DTA attitude for I dunno hw long(born wid it i guess) and U made me realise it shud alwayz b like that coz thr r sum ppl I can nvr trust n nvr shud n U r right up there who I cn nvr b sure of whthr to trust or not(I m nt evn sure i want to say this!!!)